March 31st, 2006

Jack - Crazy Enough

What to do...?

I don't know what to do about tomorrow and I have been making myself sick with worry all week thinking about it.

I don't have any help to get my mom moved, save my aunt who cannot do much, and one of her friends. I want to take someone with me who is impartial and supportive to me becuase I need that in case the worst happens... my mom goes off the deep end and gets hit, arrested, or worse...

I don't think a lot of people understand that I am falling apart over this but I don't know how to tell her no without feeling guilty and making the situation worse for her...

I am so scared right now, and so tired... I need someone or something to cling to... and I just don't have anything. My husband has to work tomorrow so he can't help and I am so reluctant to ask anyone else, because the situation is so bad.

If I am not around for a while I may have gotten arrested or just be in seclusion or something... someone please call me on Sunday and make sure I am okay.

That's all for now. I need to stop being so crazy and sad all the time. I think I am going to call a therapist.